Past, Present, Future

2007 has been:

1. Hectic and at the same time sloppy. Or at least I have been extremely sloppy.
2. Quite fun. Meeting all sorts of different people and the best part is nobody knows about your past and no one judges you because of your past reputation or record.
3. Delusional. I have strayed, lost focus and just plain delusional.
4. Very fluctuative. One minute, I love A Levels, the next, I hate it with all my heart.
5. Quite good. For a record, I actually do my homeworks. Most of them anyway compared to the rare moments of me doing my homework in school.
6. Lonesome. I am surrounded by people that I care about, but somehow, I still feel lonely.
7. Perky. I'm usually only crazy at home, but somehow, this year, it actually surfaced to my life outside my home.
8. Challenging. I realise that I'm always in a situation of wrecking my brains to come up with something extraordinary. Unfortunately, it is not always appreciated because apparently it is not needed. Wasted quite a lot of brain cells there. It's not like anyone appreciates it and lecturers sometimes think that I am showing off. I wasn't trying to. I thought this is what college is about: being outstanding and try to be as intellectual as possible to succeed.
9. Too exam-orientated. I admit, my learning now is a little exam orientated. I only study when I'm required to whereas in school, I study for my own information because you will never get any from teachers.
10. Overall, great. Have great friends who actually understand my sense of dry and extremely sarcastic even to an extent insulting humour. Some people just don't get it.

This year... which is 2008 [Dammit!!] I resolute to...

1. Work my ass off. This includes sacrificing my telly and probably shopping sprees.
2. Get all A's for my A Levels and truly work for it.
3. Be more hardworking and serious.
4. Be more of myself and less of the person that the society wants me to be. That means, my mood will be constantly fluctuating. I believe there's 2 sides of every person. I shall further elaborate this later on.
5. Be in more control of my own things.
6. Make myself SKINNY. Yes, I so resolute to do this because I am seriously very SICK of not being able to fit into clothes that I wanna buy.
7. Read more books.
8. Save more money to buy stuff that I want and won't get from my mom and spoil myself sometimes.
9. Stop being a glutton. Sigh. After today I mean. Just gorged on a lot of food for lunch just now. Stop eating so much and stop being so greedy!!!
10. Be more humble and less of a perfectionist on others.
11. Get a new phone. Especially once I've got my job for the gap year.

The further elaboration of #4:

The usual side that people think me to be is the serious, boring, taciturn nerd of a nun who has no sense of dressing and lives like a zombie. And apparently, extremely intellectual, a complete perfectionist and prideful.

The other side is the crazy person who is always locked up inside due to being afraid that I will actually scare people with my sudden bizarre behaviour. The other side is also outgoing, cheerful and friendly.

The crazy side is often forced to recede.

I shall be more realistic with myself from now on. Even if it means having the occasional very strong-willed and headstrong person surfacing.

So please, don't misunderstand if I'm a little too quiet sometimes. When I'm quiet it usually means that I'm serious and down-to-business.

Oh, and most of the time, people think that I often astral myself to Pluto and they always say: "Earth to you!! Come back from Pluto, stop dreaming/staring off into Spain!!". I'm not. I'm usually in deep thought. I'll tell you that now whether you accept it or not. And I intend to do that a lot this year because I have been playing too much last year that I screwed up a lot of things. And I suspect, my AS results.

My resolution for the future:

1. Be successful and earn lotsa moolahs and kahchings to the extent that I can buy anything I want without blinking or thinking twice. And that means a beautiful beautiful house with a beautiful garden and a grand piano with glass sliding doors and the wind blowing in. Oh, and whatever techy stuff I want.
2. Own a beautiful car. Even if it means taking the public transportation everyday for 3 years once I start working.
3. Do extremely well in everything that I do.

Alright now. Enough of blogging. I'm gonna go and do Contract now and find materials.

Yes, I finally opened my contract book and Chaucer.

It's really hell of a great time trying to read/understand wth Chaucer is writing.

But I like the slang tho. It's hilarious.

Toodles. [To the person who thinks that this is a nickname for me, it is not. It means Goodbye for crying out loud.]