Positivism

I need to learn how to be more positive and cheerful even in the midst of intense pressure and stress.

I have been extremely whiney and I didn't realise it until recently. I'm sorry if you are one of my victims of letting out. I may whine a lot, but trust me, I'm not as affected by those events as I seem to be. Why do you think my schoolmates call me the whining queen?? I'm just a professional ranter.

Things are finally looking up. Now I know what that poor cow over in UK is going through; slaughtering herself daily.

One week of moot has caused me to :

1. Go crazy
2. Be extremely busy
3. Have a nervous breakdown
4. Lose a whole deal of weight
5. Have sleepless nights
6. Lots of nightmares which is unusual
7. Become nocturnal all over again.

What more for the cow in UK who does skeleton arguments and moots and litigations every other day.

In a way, this moot has done me a lot of good. I am now:

1. Back to my nocturnal self
2. Back to the workaholic girl
3. Back on focus
4. More driven to do things
5. More analytical and analyse faster
6. See things in a wider scope
7. Learn to be more courteous/ethical
8. Not so emo
9. Better at handling stress and people
10. Learn to contemplate on a lot of things
11. More careful towards choice of words
12. A stronger person in character and in decision-making

Although I have a bong/uninterested/stressed-out face, I'm quite ok. I may be a little battered. But after some sleep I'm as good as new.

I don't know why, everyone sort of like treat me like I am some overworked girl who has an overworked disease and hence should not be disturbed.

In fact, I'm crazier than ever. But it's just that I don't show it. [Don't wanna be deemed overworked/delusional] Craziness = stress released.

I have to thank YeeLin for teaching me how to let out in a better way rather than whining.

Perhaps I give more cutting remarks. If you can't handle it, then don't.

I have finally persuaded my mom to allow me to hang stuff in my room. In fact, she even helped me think of a solution.

I actually thought of sticking all the Nun's Priest's Prologue and Tale stuff on my curtain but my mom came up with the idea of boxes. I have a lot of empty boxes and they are now being put into good use.

Here's a picture of what I've done so far.

When I've finished cleaning my room up, maybe I'll take a picture of my room. Maybe. [The room's all messed up again. Typically.]

I even did this FOCUS tag to remind myself to be more focused rather than become delusional again.

My mom actually laughed when she saw this tag.

The most exasperating quote of the day??

"Are you sure you can handle the pressure of the moot?? Make sure you don't break down and cry arr..."

Courtesy of my mom when I told her that my mock moot is tomorrow. How encouraging.

Isn't it just great to have a bong face in these times?? I mean for the moot.

I shall work my arse off until the Finals are over. Work with me?? I'll be most glad to help if I can in any way.

p/s: Btw, I'll be going to Genting this Friday. Parents wanna go there to watch Herman's Hermits. It's just so weird. Not forgetting that I have a moot to prepare for.

What am I doing here??

Ok, I shall prepare my moot now.

MOOOOO. [I'm a working cow too. Just recently.] > Awesome way of signing off isn't it??